i had decided that i wasn't going to blog today, or any more this week, but it does sort of provide temporary relief from real life sometimes, so here i am. i love spring and warm weather, but i always hate to hang my jackets up until the fall because they're so cozy (and they let you be lazy with getting dressed because you can button them up and hide what's underneath). so this is the last time i'll wear a jacket until october or november...
jacket: thrifted, shirt: banana republic, skirt: thrifted, shoes: old navy
i don't like this skirt. i've only worn it a few times, and each time i do i say it's going to be the last. this time is the last. i'm pretty sure. maybe. other than that, well, there's not much to say about this outfit.
so, when you have a million different feelings and you're feeling completely overwhelmed, and all you want to do is vent, is there a better place to share than on your blog? no. so here it is. i know i've mentioned a few times that i'm kind of drowning in orders and trying my best to keep up. i think i'm falling a little further behind each day, and on top of that, with so many more orders than usual, of course it's more likely there will be problems to deal with. from a customer problems, to post office problems, to me sending a package to the wrong address because i can't seem to keep everything straight, it's all starting to get to me. i've never been even remotely capable of handling stress, and when there are multiple issues going on at once, all i want to do is throw my hands up and say "I QUIT!" but then i have to remember that although running your own business can be very trying at times, i'd never be happy working a "real" job. i know all of this will work itself out, and eventually i will get caught up, but sometimes it's difficult to see an end in sight when you're feeling buried under the stress. maybe i should put chris in charge of customer service because he's a hell of a lot better dealing with things than i am.
this probably sounds silly, but i swear it's making me crazy. i've been small all of my life, and although it's never been as easy for me to find clothes as it has been for most everyone else i know, it's now at a whole new level of ridiculousness. since november i've been running more than i have in years, and obviously running burns fat. last night when i was trying to figure out what i'd wear to work today and tomorrow i got so frustrated and had a pity party because i didn't know what else to do. i'm finding that more and more of my clothes are too big for me. things i love and have worn for years now hang on me like a sack. if i had been bigger to begin with, i'd be happy about it, but because i was already in a size 1 or extra small, i'm so frustrated i could scream! i already buy the smallest size clothing i can find, and now that that's too big i don't know what to do, but one thing is certain: i will not shop in the girls' section - i'm almost 30 years old! even typing this out sounds ridiculous, but i hate the thought of having to get dressed because i know that nothing fits right anymore.
so i'm going to have another pity party, and then i'll get to work on orders and hope i can reach my goal for the day. sorry to be a debbie downer. how has your day been?